Monday, February 9, 2009

A Moniker for the Unbelievers and the Sergeant

I'm on the sidewalk; I'm bleeding out my lungs. The trees, they taste like honey and vinegar and French fries, the lice, they stomp and crawl and take over the earth. I feel them on my skin, hey; can you feel me on your skin too? I ask myself, hey, what am I doing here? I try to move, but something hurts so I stop. I try to talk, to yell, to tell you something above the surface of the ocean, but something else hurts and I take a deep breath of water -- lungful of blood.

I'm starting to miss the consistency that was the latency, miss the scene aesthetic, the magic and the monkeys. I told him to take me home; I didn't want to be alone. I couldn't stand, nonetheless fall. To prop myself up, it hurt, something hurt, yeah.

I closed my eyes, and felt my heartbeat. I felt the blood -- the blood had always been there, but not external. Never external. Here I am; tonight I'm inside out.